7/20/09

I made it! I hit a new decade life is good. I hope I pass through this one just as fast as the last and hit my goal!

B: 1/2 cinnamon roll from Ikea
S: water lots of water
L: leftover pizza from CPK yesterday
S: frozen yogurt
D: deli chicken, swiss cheese, sourdough bread
S: chocolate dipped strawberry.

Workouts: 2 family walks and over 300 jumping jacks throughout the day

4 years ago tonight I was at Disney World watching Wishes and celebrating the fact that I would be marrying the man of my dreams tomorrow. 2 years ago tonight I was celebrating the fact that we had a due date for my daughter and that I would be meeting my princess.

Life is good even with the bad and the doubts and the questions.

The biggest question I have had this week when thinking back is if some people had kept their thoughts to themselves about how they viewed my marrying a man who did not go to church if our relationship would be different and less strained than it is now. I really do wonder if there are times they regret saying what they did and if they wish that we had a better relationship than we do. I wonder if time will ever heal the hurt that went down then and in the next 6 months after that. I don't know if it will because I do not think either of us will ever back down from our own beliefs. I do not feel that what was said should have ever been discussed or talked about that there are times of if you have nothing nice don't say anything at all. Oh and don't discuss my relationship with people who A. do not know me and B. do not know my husband in fact not only do the people that were spoken to not know my husband those that were doing the speaking didn't know him that well either since there was no communication between them when we tried to make sure that they got to know each other.

What I do know is that I married my better half and nothing will ever change that. I do wish that there wasn't such drama with people that went down around it. I had enough going on then with Grandad dying the week before the wedding to have to deal with the stress of wondering if someone were going to say they disapproved of the wedding when asked for objections. With all the good that stands out in regards to memories it's really hard to have the bad memories still sitting right there with it. Time supposedly heals all wounds and these still feel fresh after 4 years so maybe when I'm 100 I won't remember anymore or maybe by then you'll know my husband well enough to know you made a mistake in your thoughts about him. A girl can dream ya know?