7/20/09

I made it! I hit a new decade life is good. I hope I pass through this one just as fast as the last and hit my goal!

B: 1/2 cinnamon roll from Ikea
S: water lots of water
L: leftover pizza from CPK yesterday
S: frozen yogurt
D: deli chicken, swiss cheese, sourdough bread
S: chocolate dipped strawberry.

Workouts: 2 family walks and over 300 jumping jacks throughout the day

4 years ago tonight I was at Disney World watching Wishes and celebrating the fact that I would be marrying the man of my dreams tomorrow. 2 years ago tonight I was celebrating the fact that we had a due date for my daughter and that I would be meeting my princess.

Life is good even with the bad and the doubts and the questions.

The biggest question I have had this week when thinking back is if some people had kept their thoughts to themselves about how they viewed my marrying a man who did not go to church if our relationship would be different and less strained than it is now. I really do wonder if there are times they regret saying what they did and if they wish that we had a better relationship than we do. I wonder if time will ever heal the hurt that went down then and in the next 6 months after that. I don't know if it will because I do not think either of us will ever back down from our own beliefs. I do not feel that what was said should have ever been discussed or talked about that there are times of if you have nothing nice don't say anything at all. Oh and don't discuss my relationship with people who A. do not know me and B. do not know my husband in fact not only do the people that were spoken to not know my husband those that were doing the speaking didn't know him that well either since there was no communication between them when we tried to make sure that they got to know each other.

What I do know is that I married my better half and nothing will ever change that. I do wish that there wasn't such drama with people that went down around it. I had enough going on then with Grandad dying the week before the wedding to have to deal with the stress of wondering if someone were going to say they disapproved of the wedding when asked for objections. With all the good that stands out in regards to memories it's really hard to have the bad memories still sitting right there with it. Time supposedly heals all wounds and these still feel fresh after 4 years so maybe when I'm 100 I won't remember anymore or maybe by then you'll know my husband well enough to know you made a mistake in your thoughts about him. A girl can dream ya know?

7/19/09 All Day

So I'm out of hiding HA HA HA! The week was a crazy one and nights were spent with the family. I need to get in the routine of writing again and finding a certain time of day to reflect and to record life in Roo's (my daughter's nickname for those who do not know this already) blog.

This weekend was a fabulous one with several huge accomplishments. First it was relaxing SCORE!

Saturday we went to swimming lessons with Roo and then we went to my parents for lunch. They offered to take us out since I had run the airport shuttle for their trip and I was quick to suggest a chinese restaurant that had returned to the area after a way to long hiatus and I really wanted to see if it was as good as I had remembered. It was. I had the wonton soup w/ shrimp and broccoli, I ate a tiny bit of the rice and split the egg roll with a hungry little girl (she had her own food but she was all about sharing off our plates too) Then for dinner we had a home made philly cheesesteak sandwich and we made some guacamole. It was really good. I went to bed early and slept for 11 hours and I feel human again I don't know how long it has been since I have felt this refreshed but it's a great feeling!

Today I woke up late and we went out for a family walk which was nice. We got home got cleaned up and went to California Pizza Kitchen for their chopped salad (which D and I split) and a hawaiian bbq pizza (which D and I not only split but brought over half of home) and then we went shopping at Ikea which is dangerous for me LOL! We got home and had a quarter cinnamon roll from Ikea (which I bought because they just came out of the oven) and spent time doing some last minute things in Roo's big girl room. I swear we're so close but yet so far......Then for dinner we had some black bean tamales and some baked chips. Then dessert was frozen yogurt with some aw root beer sauce on top. We found that at le gourmet and OMG it is GOOD!!!! We had another walk this evening and I hit my steps. The first time in a week. EEK!

Weight wise tomorrow is WI but for two days in a row I have been in a new decade weight wise. I'll hope that it sticks for tomorrow!

7/15/09

Ok I am out of hiding.

I don't remember if I posted last week but I hit my 20 lbs gone for the year. 20 lbs that's a lot! I don't feel that I have been working as hard at losing lately with the heat because our walks at night have been pretty much cut out. I just can't do it when the thermometer says 107 and that's not a heat index temp.......

However I have noticed a huge difference in my portion sizes and I know that has to be why I am losing. The sizes have gotten much smaller from what they were a year ago. We went to Jasons Deli on Sunday and I had to bring half of my sandwich home. It was HUGE and a year ago I would have housed that entire thing but now I had half and fruit and I was done.

I feel great about how I am doing because I am seeing big physical changes. I have 15 lbs to go for my first goal and honestly if I reach that goal I think I will be happy with it and will stay at it if at all possible.

Life has been changing and it's all for the better. Some big decisions have been made and the family is going to benefit from it and I cannot wait.

B: cheerios
S: skipped
L: 2 chicken tenders w/ buffalo sauce
S: animal crackers if I remember to take them
D: maybe a tuna sandwich
S: hmmmmmmmm to be determined I am hoping that some frozen yogurt appears in the freezer tonight. :)

7/8/09

Hey all I am still here I am still logging everything but stress levels have been high and I haven't been able to sit down and actually put my thoughts together.

There's a lot going on. There are a lot of crossed fingers at the moment but life is good and at the end of the day I have a family that loves me and that is what matters.

I hit 20 lbs lost today since January. I'm happy, REALLY happy! I'm not pushing the cardio as much as I should be right now really just doing the walking at the moment which is not good but until I can get some sleep I can't really function enough to lift weights. I want to get back to p90x and hope that next week will bring back the energy.

7/2/09

B: missed because I was taking car to the shop
S: protein bar
L: 1/2 chicken and cheese quesadilla
S: missed I was jumping around the office in excitement
D: taco salad
S: missed don't know why

Workouts: walking

Goals achieved 10K steps YAY!

7/1/09

B: cheerios
S: protein bar
L: wrap and popcorn chips
S: animal crackers
D: greek isles pasta salad in a different manner (no dressings)
S: 1/2 dumpling no glaze

Workouts: walk, walk, walk, and I am about to shred

Goals:
I am at 10K steps, I have passed my moderate exercise and right now I am at 2330 calories so 2500 is attainable.

Oh and I have now shredded.